My recent life of self-examination has taught me there are some things that are part of my nature. They fall into the "what you are", not the "what you like to do" category of activities. In that second group are activities that result from my 'sensation-seeking' nature.
Yes, I love new experiences: the feel of a texture, the smell or taste of some recipe never yet experienced, the sight of some new vista challenging me to attempt to capture it either in the lens or on the sketchpad, and for me the most seductive, a combination of sounds first heard and interpreted (I love Bach fugues); new sensory experiences delight me.
It is only natural then, that it should occur to me that all of this 'gender-confusion' might be part of that. Maybe I could be lucky. Maybe feminine feelings and pursuits might be something I needed to experience and just get past. Perhaps 'all of this' was 'just' about trying out some new stuff.
Did I mention there are some things that are part of your nature?
One more theory has made it into the trash-bin. :-(