I had watched so many YouTube videos that I fell asleep. In a dream-like state I was still watching a video, but my spirit guide Aadi was on the screen! As always, her image was shifting, old/young, woman/man, black/asian/nordic, then finally settling down as the picture and my laptop seemed to slowly dissolve. I looked up and she was sitting at the end of the couch, looking toward me; the beautiful woman I have spoken with so often in the past.
“Aadi, it has been so long! It's wonderful to see you!” “Yes, it is, isn’t it?” She looked briefly like Mary Poppins as she said that.
She asked, “How long do you think it has been since the last time?” I remembered immediately that my spirit guide didn’t live in a particular timeline, but somehow always knew everything about this version of me.
“It will be seven years in a few days.” I told her, remembering having read somewhere that a human’s cells are mostly replaced every seven years, and thinking that I am not the person I was in 2014 in more ways than one. Yet to Aadi, I was always the same. It made me wonder what she saw when she ‘looked’ at me. It also dawned on me that seven years ago, I was teetering on a cusp. I might have turned my back on transition. I am certain Aadi also keeps track of those other realities where I rebuilt the façade and gave up on transition. How could she keep track of us all? Immediately I remembered what she had told me in that last visit together:
"In what you would call this moment my consciousness is here with you, and also consoling another Halle who transitioned thirty of your years ago and cannot imagine how she can carry on without her partner of twenty five years. As I tell you this, I am with yet another version of you who just died in a mysterious car crash and is trying to figure out why he still is conscious and can see his dead body and mourning family gathered. These are just three of an infinite number of 'places' I am engaged in 'at the moment'. My perspective is *different* shall we say."
Aadi smiled as though reading my mind, which I knew she was doing constantly, “You have some questions for me today I think.” I had to laugh at that, because I did have questions as a result of a particular video I had just watched on a channel where this man ‘discusses’ difficult issues in the context of the bible as he sees it. The show I watched was about a biblical interpretation of transitioning. Quoting from Genesis, he pointed out that God made humans male and female. To him, that means God doesn’t want us to mess around with how he made us - we are supposed to remain and live as we came out of the womb. It was the old 'abomination in the sight of God' argument.
"Aadi, am I an abomination?" She surprised me with her answer: "Oh, definitely!" then clarified: "In some human beings' eyes you and anyone like you is dangerous and they hate you." "Yes, I get that," I said, "but what about God?" Without missing a beat, Aadi morphed into a white-haired thunder god and gave me a hard stare. I am used to her being able to change appearance, but suddenly, it was my appearance that shifted, over and over. I became different versions of how I have looked to the world through my lifetime as well as some looks I can only guess are how I will or could look like in the future or in other lives. As I settled back to my current appearance, thunder-god-Aadi spoke in a voice that was the most gentle of baritones. "You look just fine to me Halle."
At that moment I remembered something else she said seven years back. She told me that everything I or any of my uncountable incarnations does adds to our totality. Everything we learn increases the joy of the whole.
Aadi then surprised me by asking "Do you think God is a man?" In that dreamtime world it didn't take me a second to reply "No, I don't think so. After all, isn't it written in the same bible passage that God said 'Let us make man in our image, after our likeness'? So, since 'man' is both male and female and so many different mixes of races and appearances, doesn't that mean that God is the same? Doesn't that mean that God encompasses all of humanity?"
Looking about as though she was hosting a lecture series, Aadi asked "Does anyone have questions for our guest speaker?" then slowly faded away, Cheshire-cat-like, her beautiful smile disappearing last.
I so enjoyed this fascinating post. I also referred back to similar posts from the past in which Aadi appeared, and I am bewildered. I said things then as comment and thought, "Why has that awareness left me now?" Much the same can be said of GWYNT.
ReplyDeleteKeep writing Deanna, but I may not choose to clutter your comment box. Somehow the words of, "Butterfly of Love" are coming to mean more, and something different/deeper, than was probably intended by the author of those lyrics.
It's only me pursuing somethin' I'm not sure of
DeleteAcross my dreams with nets of wonder
Oh my ... thank you Tom.
So, Deanna and Tom,
ReplyDeleteDo you believe in reincarnation in a spiritual or physical sense and if so is it intentionally or otherwise not part of the biblical record. Dreams of course are.
Best wishes
Personally, I believe that life is much more complex than we can imagine, as I think my experience of Aadi seems to testify. No, I don't believe in reincarnation. That is not to say that I believe in death as an ending either. The bible doesn't have a hint of what I have experienced, but I'm not trying to start a religion, so all is well.
DeleteHa ha - what a relief !, seriously, of course I wouldn’t think you were trying to start a religion.
ReplyDeleteAs your probably aware, in early Christianity, influenced by platonic roots and a more liberal interpretation of Christ’s works and sayings the reincarnation movement was evident. But that idea was snuffed out from 320 - 550 AD.
Early leaders such as Valentin could have fairly easily have changed the course of history and our attitudes to a lot of things don’t you think ?? Your Spirit guide seems to be adopting that idea with different carnations of Halle although I note the rein is missing.
That would indeed increase complexity and present a challenge to theology, I can’t imagine an equivalent Creed can you ?
Best wishes
On the subject of my spirit guide, his/her capricious nature is one with reality - never in line with any established line of thought that I have seen unless it is particle physics. For a discussion of different carnations of Halle, I refer you to a post that might predate your finding of these scribblings of mine. https://hallesfacade.blogspot.com/2012/10/all-one.html
DeleteAs a further note, I do appreciate how knowledgable you are on the subject of Christianity as a philosophical playground. Indeed, if some choices in the first few centuries had been made differently, Christianity would likely have disappeared, along with other mystery-cults that flourished at the same time. In so many ways its success depended less upon Jesus, and more on Constantine and his crew.
DeleteThanks for the reference which as you say predated my reading and a was a good read. I noticed the next post was a long time afterwards but thereafter a continuing stream of of interesting posts.
ReplyDeleteIn relation to your comment referencing the spirit guide ……never in line with my established line of thought unless it is particle physics - led me to think maybe those other worlds ( if you be believe in that ) plausibly can posit reincarnation but our consciousness doesn’t quite have that awareness or indeed the need to believe in it to exist ? Best wishes