tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post6770503290897226466..comments2024-01-31T09:36:11.225-05:00Comments on Two Spirits - One Halle: Today's Real Post - Film At ElevenHallehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03847654451426257182noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-9773964996369499772011-03-26T06:05:18.555-04:002011-03-26T06:05:18.555-04:00@Anne; When I mentioned the war was back, it was a...@Anne; When I mentioned the war was back, it was a reference to the internal effects of a recent attempt to 'convince' her to give up her life. Sadly, as Suzi says above<br /> "... you will NEVER be able to totally ditch Halle. Purging is ALWAYS temporary."<br />I need to find a way to carry on letting her 'live' in some meaningful way. Finding a level of 'sacrifice&Hallehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03847654451426257182noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-1442251433757010832011-03-26T03:06:21.453-04:002011-03-26T03:06:21.453-04:00I read of many women on fora and blogs who step ou...I read of many women on fora and blogs who step out into a new life and just get on with living. Whether they have no bagagge or whether they choose to not air the difficulties, I do now know.<br /><br />For others we seem to get caught on the cusp - deperate to move forward and but unable to face the potential loss and destruction we might leave in our wake.<br /><br />Staying as I am seems the Beccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14342124169953960479noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-31111189112074009262011-03-26T02:20:51.928-04:002011-03-26T02:20:51.928-04:00This is a tough post and strikes to the very heart...This is a tough post and strikes to the very heart of GD. What strikes me is this...<br /><br />"Unless it becomes obvious that I cannot be the best person I know how to be while staying in the body I came with, I am not going to risk losing the people who I love."<br /><br />And then, this..."How badly did she want to be that 'best person' you ask. Not enough. She has theAnnehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02696670919817140802noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-22684711872774007082011-03-25T23:18:48.657-04:002011-03-25T23:18:48.657-04:00Halle,
As you have been going down this road and ...Halle,<br /><br />As you have been going down this road and peeling back layers of the onion so to say, I think I understand where you are. <br /><br />If I am going to lean on another's comment, it's Anne's. Life is a struggle and a journey. A struggle in balancing our needs with those close to us, and a journey in that those close to us travel with us.<br /><br />It's easy to Sarah Wilsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13018597739320720216noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-4866761954254854162011-03-25T17:59:49.118-04:002011-03-25T17:59:49.118-04:00Halle,
Incredible post...incredible comments.
All...Halle,<br />Incredible post...incredible comments.<br /><br />All I can say is that you will NEVER be able to totally ditch Halle. Purging is ALWAYS temporary.<br /><br />I totally understand the sacrifice of which you speak, and sometimes we are the loneliest of people. I like what Melissa said about "outing" yourself, but I also understand how hard that is to actually follow through Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-83266300606180553442011-03-25T13:28:04.733-04:002011-03-25T13:28:04.733-04:00Oops, I knew it might happen - me not saying it ri...Oops, I knew it might happen - me not saying it right but, I took a chance. Your last sentence says what I was trying to say. Is self respect not leading to respect of others just as self love needs to be there before we can love others?<br />Sorry, this is not an argument. I'm a confused but not grumpy old woman.Ellenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14965850008354379369noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-27715485844069346252011-03-25T12:38:32.024-04:002011-03-25T12:38:32.024-04:00Ellena, I honestly wish you were correct here, but...Ellena, I honestly wish you were correct here, but cannot let you go away confusing self-knowledge with self-respect. I will grant you that I am closer now than I have been ever to understanding what is going on within me. <br /><br />Gaining the momentum needed to act (ie make future choices) in my own "best interest", against the needs of others to whom I have made commitments spoken Hallehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03847654451426257182noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-11604820684934170782011-03-25T12:15:23.983-04:002011-03-25T12:15:23.983-04:00You seem to have achieved total self-knowledge. Yo...You seem to have achieved total self-knowledge. Your future choices can be nothing but right for you. I think that's what self-respect is all about?Ellenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14965850008354379369noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-64175629248168179152011-03-25T04:41:24.220-04:002011-03-25T04:41:24.220-04:00Incredibly, everyone in the inner circle of my lit...Incredibly, everyone in the inner circle of my little online cadre is in crisis. I never expected to be the one in the best shape, and never wished for it. <br /><br />You have major decisions to make, though you make it sound like it's all decided already. It's not. <br /><br />Don't be like me. Don't ignore your feelings. Don't languish in an effing limbo forever. DonLeslie Annhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15373261212549008939noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-57336773132454532682011-03-25T00:42:52.190-04:002011-03-25T00:42:52.190-04:00NEWS FLASH @ 11
Halle. Your Life is NOT a train ...NEWS FLASH @ 11<br /><br />Halle. Your Life is NOT a train wreck. Your life is a struggle, just like every other life on this planet. It is also a journey. What paths you take along that journey are the results of the choices you make as you exrcise your Free Will.<br /><br />Part of being human is making choices and then living with the consequences/rewards of those choices. All that anyoneAnnehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02696670919817140802noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-41096000841877037442011-03-24T22:43:42.197-04:002011-03-24T22:43:42.197-04:00Halle,
I feel like I have some sort of insight in...Halle,<br /><br />I feel like I have some sort of insight into your situation simply because I was allowed to transition earlier. I haven't lived near my family in 5 plus years. I know how sharp those reigns are, especially when they are made of consideration and trust. You often have to worry about the stability of the people on the other end of them. But at least you acknowledge what it&Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-33027698816661636112011-03-24T21:19:03.783-04:002011-03-24T21:19:03.783-04:00I'm at a loss for words. After what I just wen...I'm at a loss for words. After what I just went through today coming out, I completely understand not wanting to put yourself through this pain. It may cost me the most important person in my life.<br /><br />But what pushed me on anyway was the knowledge that keeping this buried would have cost me her anyway, or worse.<br /><br />I can't imagine what you must be going through. This is noLife In Neonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11184967325447681823noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-48596930911556300642011-03-24T19:20:06.743-04:002011-03-24T19:20:06.743-04:00This comes from a support site for those who have ...<a href="http://www.drirene.com/thine_own.htm" rel="nofollow">This</a> comes from a support site for those who have been verbally abused, but I feel that it applies to so many of us.<br /><br />Where ever you end up, I hope that you can be true to yourself in the end.<br /><br />xoxo<br />TeaganFalinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07006373893076810290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-4313380326889650022011-03-24T18:36:16.438-04:002011-03-24T18:36:16.438-04:00Halle: it is truly heartbreaking to hear the resi...Halle: it is truly heartbreaking to hear the resignation in your words. I understand that place in which you are. In the end the moral dictate of the life decisions we have made and to which we are bound firmly shuts so many doors. We are free in our first decision but bound in all that are consequential.<br /><br />In the end though we cannot toss.Kathryn Dumkehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16054997856180869508noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-64421815234113792732011-03-24T18:14:09.260-04:002011-03-24T18:14:09.260-04:00Stace, finding a therapist has been an issue not r...Stace, finding a therapist has been an issue not resolved. I won't go into the details, but that has been one of the problems of living where we do. I will be deciding what friends and relatives are going to be let into the inner circle, for I understand what you are saying Melissa; it would lighten the burden some for me and my wife too. <br /><br />Claire, I have held off writing this post Hallehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03847654451426257182noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-36459990413558530772011-03-24T17:30:12.144-04:002011-03-24T17:30:12.144-04:00Halle,
You whose posts I read to discover where I ...Halle,<br />You whose posts I read to discover where I am myself. I'm sorry but at the moment I am like an emotional train crash- I feel I am letting you down as a friend, someone who has helped me so much. But just now I haven't a clue.<br />But know this, you are a sensitive and deep person, I am better for knowing you. Whatever the future holds - keep in touch. ClaireClaire L Hallamhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01535569086150530774noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-38840989217174701492011-03-24T15:58:40.442-04:002011-03-24T15:58:40.442-04:00Re: I cannot bring myself to risk losing the peopl...Re: <i>I cannot bring myself to risk losing the people I love and who I know would walk through fire for me for anything but this, something that is so foreign to them it cannot be accepted as sanity.</i><br /><br /><br />Have you tried confiding this part of yourself with them? It seems to me that if they love you, even if the are not willing to accept transition, they could offer their Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04600684740584460891noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-69128955499644086012011-03-24T15:25:57.785-04:002011-03-24T15:25:57.785-04:00Halle,
I'm lost for words as to what to say h...Halle,<br /><br />I'm lost for words as to what to say here. <br /><br />Please tell me that you have a therapist that you can talk to. Or someone.<br /><br />Thinking of you,<br />StaceStacehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07907346657510908857noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-72600778494467290712011-03-24T14:17:04.096-04:002011-03-24T14:17:04.096-04:00@Randi - thanks for the kind words. As with most t...@Randi - thanks for the kind words. As with most things here, it is good to have kindred spirits.<br /><br />My friend Ariel; a huge hug and thank you. You know our chats are always a high point of any day!<br /><br />Hugs, <br /><br />HalleHallehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03847654451426257182noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-17547709219398314002011-03-24T13:52:10.542-04:002011-03-24T13:52:10.542-04:00My heart is breaking for you, Halle. Please keep i...My heart is breaking for you, Halle. Please keep in mind that even though we have never met, I think we are still friends. That's true because you are you, whatever else is true about you.<br /><br />I hope you are not afraid of leaving behind gendered expectations. Even so, I understand that it's not enough, not when what you need is something else entirely. What a gift indeed!<br /><br Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6270306578933066732.post-84528544508616879542011-03-24T12:31:56.683-04:002011-03-24T12:31:56.683-04:00I understand your needs and your decision. I have...I understand your needs and your decision. I have made a similar decision. The money I would use to fund transition will go to my daughters Master's degree.<br /><br />I'll stay a man, and continue to look like a guy-dyke.<br /><br />At my age, many natal born women don't look or dress all that feminine either.<br /><br />Human reason and will can be very strong. You are not the Randinoreply@blogger.com