"The unexamined life is not worth living" Socrates

- - scatterings of ideas sent to my younger self, a sensitive girl who was fooled into believing she was a boy because of anatomy - -

Wednesday, 30 September 2020

How To Be A Girl

In the spirit of the previous post, here is another "in the public service". 

Some good friends (thank you T & L) alerted me to this very well-produced podcast - How To Be A Girl.

Marlo Mack (a pseudonym) began sharing her and her transgender daughter’s story back in 2013, when her daughter was five. 

The first episode - Mama, I'm A Girl - was presented in June 2014. It is below in the cartoon version. Or you can find it and all others on Marla's webpage. She also has a blog, gendermom, with lots of goodies. I have checked and new posts of gendermom appear on T-Central. 

I have only listened to the first four episodes myself, so I'm going to head back and listen to more before supper. Based on those few early ones, I just had to alert anyone who might stop by. 


How to Be a Girl from gendermom on Vimeo.

Wednesday, 9 September 2020

As a Public Service

Earlier this year, seven months ago, I wrote that this blog was done. I wrote that I have moved on. I wasn't wrong. Sometimes you have to accept that, as a public service, information needs to be shared. 

This post comes as the result of an online chat. Coline and I were talking about hormone therapy. She has noticed something interesting and potentially valuable that we need to share so I went along with her idea to write a post here because it is clear she is right. This is information that our sisters in the community could benefit from. I did mention that few and maybe none of the sisters stop by here now, but, well, how can it hurt to post this? So, here we go!

Both Coline and I use Estrogel for our hormone therapy. I've been using it, at various dosages, daily (apart from a month around my surgery) for over five years. It is the only method of delivery I've used. Coline started out on estrogen patches. She says she hated them. They always left a dark area on her skin from clothing sticking to the adhesive. Mostly they were hard to get off, but sometimes they would just fall off and not be missed until the evening. 

A surprising thing that Coline has noticed - if you let the canister of gel sit for a week after it seems to have given its last, it will give you another pump of gel. In fact, one of hers has yielded a whole extra pump for nine nights in a row! Considering the cost of this product, that is quite a large saving. 

There was a post featured on T-Central a few weeks ago now about hormones and their effects. What I think needs to be said is that the effects of hormone therapy are different for each individual. Coline, for instance, has found that she feels more emotional since starting it. As she said, "After nearly sixty years I was finally allowed to let the tears flow." I have always been able to weep in emotional times, but have found that getting away from Mr.T(estosterone) has allowed me to act in more considered and calculated ways. I can still get angry - really angry - but flying off the handle is a thing of the past. 

As expected, my breasts grew and were very tender in the nipple area. Growth happened in spurts for both of us. I noticed a hard area just below the nipples that only stopped hurting a couple of years ago. The tissue has become so natural and soft that when I had my first mammogram last month it didn't hurt at all, in spite of warnings by friends and family to the contrary. Lucky me!

Both Coline and I have noticed softer skin and a redistribution of fat. Areas that used to have well-defined muscles (arms and legs, especially) are quite smooth and soft now. Very pleasant results. 

Temperature control hasn't been an issue at all for me. I have always perspired freely, and that hasn't changed. The extra weight that I'm carrying now hasn't helped at all. Oh yes, that high metabolic rate that came with Mr. T has gone - to be replaced by a much lower need for calories. Don't eat like you used to, girl, because it will be noticed. As Auntie Marlene used to say "A moment on the lips - A lifetime on the hips!" 

My legs, once a forest of hairs, are now mostly hairless as are my arms. Sadly, the facial hair didn't follow suit and hair on the top of my head hasn't grown back (HRT isn't a miracle drug). But both Coline and I are confident the loss of hair there has stopped. 

Everything (including my own urine!) smells stronger than before to me, while Coline feels exactly the opposite has happened. Sadly my appetite hasn't been diminished (darn!). And on the subject of smell, we both agree body odour has all but disappeared. If you have reassignment surgery, be aware that feminine hygiene is a whole other subject that you can research on your own ladies. UTIs are real and more frequent now, and, yes, cranberries do help a lot, but only use real cranberries and pure cranberry juice - not the fake cocktail stuff. There is a capsule supplement of concentrated cranberry that worked well - recommended by my pharmacist. 

An important caution - do not self-prescribe any drug, especially one that can cause damage to your body. Only an endocrinologist can make sure you are staying healthy while on HRT. 

As Coline says, and I cannot agree more heartily, the most important result of hormone therapy - we are just so darned relaxed and happy! 

Thursday, 13 February 2020

Everything is Fine Here ...

I am posting one final time to say goodbye properly, and, as well, to clear up a mess caused by deleting an uncharacteristically hasty and messy post.

Yes, this is the last time I intend to post here for many reasons, most of them included in a post I did on my other blog; the blog I intend to continue to post to, when the spirit (the one I have left of the two that battled for control so recently) moves me.

I would especially like to thank my friends in Portugal who account for over 100, 000 of the over 500, 000 visits here. I really would have liked a comment or two from any one of you; ah well.

But, seriously, my sincere thanks to those who did comment so generously: Calie, Jenny, Petra, two Aunties, Dru, Melissa (rest in peace, love), and so many others who encouraged me at the beginning. A special shout-out to Tom, Lindsay, and Ellena (who left this world better by living and sadder by dying) who brought others here. She and they knew nothing about the world of a transgender woman, then learned more than they ever wanted to about this one in particular.

There are over a hundred followers, and I know most don't stop by anymore. And, yet, I also know that some do: Rouchswalwe, Joey, Emma, Anne, Lucy, and so many others whom I haven't heard from for ages, but remember fondly, and would love to catch up with.

There are others who became friends. I see them regularly, or irregularly. We talk or chat - thank you, too, and I hope to talk to you all soon ... tonight, in one case, I know already that we will chat.

So, I am fine ... everything is under control, apart from those things that should never be under control; the fun bits!

As Nadine tells us:
Love You! 

Love Yourselves!