This morning I realized for this past two months or so I have been wasting energy trying to make things happen for myself. At the same time, there has been a lack of spiritual connections. But there is no way to force a connection with one's inner spirit.
Coincidentally, (or could it all be connected?) in this past while, my lack of feminine expression has been on my mind more than any time in the past two years; a terrific distraction.
Lucy's post jarred me this morning. Among many things, what she wrote reminded me that my job is to set the course and allow things to happen in their own way.
My transition has been unique to me; one in which things have changed slowly, yet change has happened.
Attitudes, mine and others around me, are slowly and subtly shifting. That is my way, and my plan for me.
I am not my body and my true nature shines through in spite of appearances. Even more though, my true nature is just that; true. I am under no obligation to my family or anyone else to become someone new or stay as someone familiar.
This morning, I woke up twice. I now remember that what is important is to have as much fun as I can letting things take their course.