As illustrated by the previous post, there is a certain distance now that is getting in the way of good (relevant and honest) communication here. One can only say what one knows. One can only use the tools that are at hand to say what one wishes to say.
There are words aplenty archived over the seven years so far on the subject of dysphoria and transition. There are stories of success that came through struggle and hard decisions. There are also hints of a spiritual development that defies religious expression. Without that, I wouldn't be here at all. The words I will likely add from here onward can only speak from the perspective of my here and now. I will never forget, but neither will I dwell in the past.
I won't change the title of the blog, because most of what is archived relates well to two spirits and the reality of that sort of life. If I could partition this blog, the part from now on would have to be labelled something like: Halle's Place. Dull but accurate.
I am the person who survived the internal struggle and can only speak my truth.
As well, one must face the question about technological relevance. Blogging is a medium that suits me well. Facebook would have been useless as a platform on this topic, as would Tweeting. Photos of my dinner, or the repairs to a musical instrument, or the latest score of a piece I'm working on are not things I choose to share with the world at large at any rate.
Is blogging or this blog in particular still relevant? I've no idea. I will say that this blog gets more "views" per day now than at any time, but fewer comments. More important to me personally, in the past two years the blog has generated zero new email contacts. I have friends (real ones who I break bread with) who I met because of this blog. I am so very grateful to know them.
I shall never stop examining my life and doing my best to make sense of it; that is what brought me this far. My true family is all around and we can talk any time you wish; ask (use "halle.randall08" at gmail dot com) and an email will come your way. Any new insights I get into some topics will have to come from revisiting them. I am most likely to do that in a conversation with you.
Love and be true to yourself.
Just passing through.ReplyDelete
I am glad you are well.
An old friend.
As I am in Ontario these days are you anywhere near Mississauga or Oakville? would be nice to meet you in personReplyDelete
That would be nice. Although I'm not close to those, we might be able to work something out. If you send me an email at that address above, we can discuss possibilities.Delete
Looking forward to a good conversation.
I'm glad to know you are well, Halle.ReplyDelete
Wishing you peace and good fortune.
And to you as well Susan.Delete