"The unexamined life is not worth living" Socrates

- - scatterings of ideas sent to my younger self, a sensitive girl who was fooled into believing she was a boy because of anatomy - -

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

Changed For Good

A lot of energy is spent on the different ways we are touched by and react to our gender variance. What I want to touch on briefly here is that universal potential we share.

Being two-spirited should not be a burden. In another place and time, we might join hands (not just virtually) and sing our joy at who we are and the contributions we make to that world because of that perspective we bring. The crushing weight of guilt and shame lifted, we would soar.

How wonderful to live at least part of the time in that brighter world. I will stay there for at least part of today and I invite you who have lifted me to come there for at least a while. (I will be the one in green BTW.)

Big Hug!


  1. I like your new blog title, no more 'hiding' behind the facade. Also, the video was most fitting for the occasion!

    Hugs, Elly

  2. Very appropriate changes, a re-focus on where you are. Even those of us who consider themselves complete as they are, are two-spirits as we have lived on both sides of the fence, so to speak. My past will remain a part of my future.

  3. Excellent title! (As long as no First Nations people object.) I think it captures what you have expressed to me that you feel. And although it's not always easy in our culture to be two-spirited, it's still a gift.

    I'm honoured to know you, even just a little. Changed for good indeed.


  4. Good new blog title, Halle. I think we are all changed by our experiences, and relationships, hopefully it's for the good.

    I just noticed you have 66 followers already! It's no wonder. You are well liked!

    Uhm......you might want to have that skin condition looked at. I don't think green is a natural human color. Might be something in the well water. ;-)

    Melissa XX

  5. It took a frog to point out "It Isn't Easy Being Green"! :)


  6. Well, Halle you made me cry. The title to your blog is right. I can feel the leverage inside of you and it is strong. We all know that being green is not easy but without it where would we be. You are not traveling alone and you are always in my sight.


  7. Halle, I totally understand your choice of titles, but consider this:

    I often sense an air of confusion in my wife. She accepts me as I am, but sees the two presentations separately. She married the male and needs his masculinity in her life. At the same time she understands and appreciates my feminine side. She has called me handsome and beautiful in the same sentence.

    Still, there are times when she feels a greater sense of confusion and I can tell she is struggling with who I really want to be. When this confusion shows up, I have to remind her I'm not two different people...I'm just ME. I've always been this way...I've always thought this way...I've always wanted to express myself as a woman. Therein is the rub...the two presentations...male and female. I find it increasingly hard to put my full attention into being the male...the husband. One thing remains solid...my undying love for her sweet, kind, accepting, heart.

    I hope you will someday be able to present your true self totally to your wife, with her blessing. That trapped spirit...the one you need to express so badly...set it free. This is a big part of why I named my blog Suzi's Freedom. Baby steps, girl. :)Suzi

  8. Love the new title, Halle, although I liked the old one too...

    Calie xxx

  9. @ Suzi... I wonder about the wisdom of touting your particular appoach or accomodation that you seem to have reached with your wife while in the same paragraph admitting to the confusion and difficulty that it causes for her.

    The very fact that you are aware of these difficulties in your own relationship, should give you pause, before you espouse your own "personal expression" at the expense of you wife's needs for the man she married.

    I can understand your reasoning that it is still really "you" encased or embodied in that apparently chameleon-like persona that you 'present'. However, while maintainin a dual personality, with the ability to present either M or F might 'work' for you and even to a lesser degree, your wife, I believe that abandoning the male entirely is not fair to the woman you committed to as a man.

    If you are truly a woman, then "woman up" and go do what needs be done to be the "real woman" you believe yourself to be.

  10. Excellent blog title, Halle! Sums it all up nicely.

  11. @ Suzi

    I have known you for some time now, and although we may be at opposite ends of the political spectrum, I absolutely adore and respect you! I also completely trust your judgement when it comes to your personal affairs. Critics notwithstanding, only youknow what is right for you and your relationship with your wife. Do not let anyone sway you from what your intuition tells you is the best. course.

    Melissa XX

  12. Halle,

    Being two-spirited is not a burden...I am soaring with you!